MIA
30 May 2011 Leave a Comment
in Little Bundle Of Joy, Workaholic
I have been MIA for so long, I almost forgot that I have a blog… Giving birth is no joke ok, have to feed, bath, take care, teach, play, entertain, disturb the little baby all the time. There are just endless and endless things to do… Going to work everyday just makes my heart drop as I watch his face twist into this expression and he starts to wail… Gradually, he no longer wails as I go, but he no longer want me as much as he wanted me earlier…
I had been in a dilemma, whether to continue with my work, or to stay home and be with him, at least to be with him for the 1st few years of his life, to guide him and teach him. When I am at work, I cannot concentrate as I constantly am thinking about him. When I am home, I can’t give him my full attention as there work to be done. Ohhhh… The troubles of a working mom…
Finally, I decided that enough is enough. I will stay home and be the mother that he needs, to be there for him as he is growing up. After working for 10 years, it is really not easy to give up my career which I had used my blood and tears to build. I was also so afraid, that I won’t be able to provide him a good life with materialistic abundance. I had so many concerns, and I couldn’t sleep for weeks before I finally decided to give up everything for him.
I was so hesitant to walk into my boss’s room to hand him the resignation letter. I SMS my hubby and told him I am scared, cos I really am not good at goodbyes… After mustering up my courage, I informed my boss of my decision and he agree to release me, on 1 condition, that I would help him to hand over nicely to the next person taking over. I agreed of course.
So now, I am gonna embark on a new journey, no more LVs, no more impulse buying, no more decadent dining, no more frequent shopping… All the things I used to enjoy, I have to give it all up for the sake of my son… Shall see how face I can go…
Say your peace